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Cisplatin the sadist savior tomorrow with final dose of 35 radiations. Six volts.

Cisplatin: Intoxicating lover, intoxicating has a middle name.

To permit inspires. To inspire permits.

Emilio says to check out D’Angelo’s album Black Messiah. Raw. iLL. Permissive.

Dreamed this morning a lover after having wandered away from home and marriage in frustration. A brief jaunt. The lover wears a long slinky dark dress. Took the form of a friend’s wife. We lay against the stone wall of the old castle in the park after having played with children. Sensual. Sexual but not sex. We discuss the frustrations of polyamory. It’s a fulfilling hang.

Rivka, Rinah and Ashirah are at the cottage crafting: Rivka skin care products, R and A jewelry to sell at Pride.

Rivka is short on energy to parse the rapidly shit out songs most recently The Point? and Voice that Couldn’t Speak. It’s understandable.

Read Lynn Tillman (Haunted Houses) and Katherine Texier (Love Me Tender). More seventies eighties New York art scene.

Marriage: What do you mean when you’re mad and say “you’re not my friend”? That hurts.Frustrated they don’t want to hear about friends where there was sex decades ago. Unless it’s Otter.

Jim Hensen. Bad ass genius mother. Kermit the Frog.

Steve Stein brings by unsold food from his precarious new restaurant, Camelia Grab ‘n’ Go. Shrimp salad, brisket, cheese grits. Awesome, or probably is if you can taste.

Time to put more oils and salves on this gradient of missing skin that is the left side of my neck.

-iLL is a play name. Don’t take it too serious.

30/04/2025